The Cantonese is coming along naturally, and it's very fun; I have hit a point where I've plateaued on studying, but I've been humbled greatly this week, and that helps a lot with me understanding how everything is tying together, spiritual and factual. I'm loving sharing the culture and language with others, and I thank you for sharing that with me; it's a great gift.
Elder Neil. L Anderson came and spoke, and it was on recognizing the spirit, which helped a ton because i was feeling down and groggy. I'd done a ton of district meetings the morning of, and done a blessing of healing for a sister in our district. The talk had so many great points, but some of the best were his attributes of the spirit.
1-intellectually and emotionally involved
2-heart needs to be believing and anticipating
3-you can recieve direction without explanation with specific words in your mind
(in the moment where you need the spirit, you focus on nothing but listening to the spirit, and for whomever you are trying to help)
4-Connects doctrine to personal life
5-strengthens educational desires
6-extends power of conscience
7- confirmed by priesthood (D&C 46:27)
8-cannot be forced
9-line upon line, leaving room for answers later(the lord will give whatever revelation you need when you need it, not when you want it.)
10-it will often come as you speak or write.
I've been having some rough times like I said before, and I want to say to Dad that I know he's listening to the spirit because the letter he sent me said exactly what I needed to hear when i needed it. I love you dad, and you've blessed me with your great advice through your letter; it will has and will give me great comfort in the future. I went through the temple for the first time in a long time (the temple's been closed), and I was going through endownments, and I was halfway through the video when I had a thought come to mind that I haven't had for a while. One that I've pondered since I was young, maybe 8 yrs, and I finally recieved comfort from it's burden on my mind. The thought that I know there is life after death, but I don't know what it will be like, how i will think, and alot of surface questions. It's a feelling so raw and deep, but I can't describe it besides fear. and in that fear, I asked god "will I be happy in the after life?" I passed through the veil and into the celestial room, and I felt so peaceful and guided, and I knew god was with me then. I pondered my heart, and told god i want to know how to finally identify and finish this problem, this feeling; and I told him I would listen and obey. I felt I should go to Alma 32:21, which has been a favorite scripture for a long time, and it says 21 And now as I said concerning faith—faith is not to have a perfect knowledge of things; therefore if ye have faith ye hope for things which are not seen, which are true.
I felt so humbled, I had not relied on god as much as I had thought, and in that moment, the spirit told me to have faith that he would provide, which i had told myself, but never hoped for... Upon small and simple things we will be taught, and I am a slow learner, so it works.
My companionship of three is doing great, and we are finally working together. Tell me how sam is, what he's doing, he has not written, and send me pics of what you guys are up to. Thank you so much for the letter and the package; I needed both desparetly, and I hope I can write you again soon!! lOVE YOU
You are amazing; everything I would ever need was in that package, and it made my day so happy! I needed it, and everything is heavenly, so thank you! I love you so much!